Overcoming inertia

Woah its been more than a month since i've been here! And boy what a smashing time it has been!

To start it off, it was my very own birthday on the 24th May!!!! Yay! It was quite enjoyable but to be truthful it wasn't as big as i wish it would have been... Not big in the sense of a mega birthday party but in terms of people coming up to wish me or singing birthday songs... Well like no one in my OG wished me (personally i mean, like almost everyone wished me on FB so i guess i'm happy abt that), esp because it was a Monday and well I had to go for ISLE. Of course the ISLE ppl sang a song and got a cake too so it was great i guess, but to be absolutely honest i don't think i know you guys very well, but of course 2 weeks in China without toilet bowls are gonna change that :) Den cos of the stupid chem O selection test, the class didn't sing and give presents in the morning before lessons started and the only time everyone could do it was a extremely rushed session immediately after math lecture. It was... well... bittersweet I guess. And people that I really wished to see come and wish me happy birthday in person didn't come (... yea, you didn't wish me in person, did you...) Then I had lessons full day till 5pm, and my family had this little birthday dinner at cafe cartel, which was absolutely delicious. I ate twice what i was supposed to eat i think. But yea there was this general feeling of unaccomplishment, that there was so many unfulfilled aspects of this birthday. But I guess I'm the kind to keep all this things to myself, and i'm not gonna go complain or tell others but yea... Anyway it wasn't so bad I'm also grateful for so many things like my i dunno close to 200 FB wishers, 3E who got me er the dog although i have no idea which part of my desk jungle it is situated in, Davin for the present, ISLE peeps for the cake... maybe I don't sound so happy because my joy isn't exactly coming from the people I would expect it to come from.

Anyway soon after that was CCAL camp! (deliberately skipping GP ct) Bottoms up was an awesome group, not really bonded at the start but we kinda blended in well after a while. The campsite was better than expected, food was not, but the activities were fun! Especially enjoyed well everything, it was truly a wonderful learning experience for me. And the most beautiful of them all were the stars, a mesmerising painting in the sky, brilliant lights and dots of white (but i couldn't watch them with you could i? cos you weren't there). Anyway I enjoyed myself to the fullest and I consider it something that i won't regret, like OBS.

And the weeks following that were mainly focused around band. RI and RJ are combining together for SIBF, and while some/most/almost everyone is not really happy with playing with RI, well I guess I'm still quite okay with it, cos I felt that I didn't manage to help RIMB improve as much as I would want to last year due to some ahem-people who caused trouble which I had to resolve instead of helping the band more-ahem hiccups, so I guess this is another chance to help RIMB la. Anyway I have few complaints about my section apart from 2 people who are not playing anyway. Not that my section's pro, just that I find that they are willing to put in effort and work hard without complaining and causing trouble like somebody. Anyway two new developments- I'm playing Flugel for SIBF! Its quite fun, can make emo tone on the horn but mouthpiece resistance is crazy, can't even buzz properly on the mouthpiece. Speaking of mouthpieces, my new mouthpiece came! Its cool! Lol the mouthpiece i borrow from Quintus was described by Yamaha to be suitable for principal ORCHESTRAL players, the one i got has a even bigger cup. Oops. But i like the tone la, a bit more mellower, and my lips can play the higher register without sounding as fuzzy as with smaller mouthpieces. Yea so jiayous everyone for SIBF.

And mugging. Enough said.

What do you do when there's someone you can't have but really want to have at the same time? You sigh. ANd life goes on, mustn't it?

p.s. finally did something to the appearance of my blog. Raindrops are cool. They look cool. And they hide tears.