Life

Wow life passes so fast. 1st year of school is already close to 75% over.

Oh man life is really just passing by too quickly.

While some stuff happened in my life i want to highlight.

SIBF Gold 2nd place!!!! I still can't believe it. 2 months to prepare was simply a rollercoaster la, also in the middle had to stop for CTs+preparation, den i had so much stuff on e.g. A level chinese listening and oral that it was just sooooo rushed and i had to always come late, plus the fact that i was playing flugel as well as trumpet. Wow. And to be truthfully honest i was very unhappy with my playing on the actual day, thought i blew it totally (pun intended). And those around me could see me emoing the whole after SIBF period. But then the results shocked me completely. WOWOWOWOWOW! I suddenly turned estatic la seriously. Craziest 1 hour of my life in a long time.

Post-mortem: Thank God for the intervention, and listening to the recording i realised that either (i)I actually sounded good from the audience and what i heard was not right or (ii)the audience could not really hear me play badly. But still, I know i really really need to buck up on my playing. SYF's next year and i really want NO regrets!

But then again the ssue about my trumpet playing is very displeasing to me. You see its just that my standard now is simply bad. It wasn't that i didn't know the score or practice enough for SIBF, cos prior to that i was playing well. But at that instant, my lips kinda gave in, couldn't buzz properly, tone sounded whine-y, etc. Did I know what notes to play? Yes. The mood of the music? yes too. And well the normal person would simply say: ok then practise more. But all i can say is how much more? COmparing myself to the other band members, something's not right. I don't think anyone can say that they practised much more than me (well of course some will practise more but not by a lot). After all since sec 2 i practised my instru 5 days a week, in the period before concert/competition it was 6 days somemore. SO no one can say that i didn't practise enough. But what do I have to show for it? Everyone's so much better than me! Seriously, my improvement rate is stagnating! And I'm not happy! I expected myself to be playing scores reaching high C comfortably by now, but just reaching G in scores is difficult and ugly sounding. Whats wrong????.........Well all I can confort myself with now is the thought of how i was a lousy eupho player until i almost reached sec 3 where there was nothing short of an exponential jump, so maybe it'll happen to me too. But when? How long more? Hais...

Anyway CTs were... not satisfactory. But better than expected. Must work more on everything.

And my precious bass got problem. I managed to solve most of it but I dun like the sound on one of the settings. Hopefully it'll get better soon.

Oh well I'm still quite sore after my rant about my playing. I think 1 in every 2 posts has seen me ranting. But I still hold on to the hope that things will get better. With time.