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Wow, how I've neglected this blog haha. I kept saying I wanted to post but oh well lolz.

Anyway just had a great weekend! Haha went to RWS, stayed at a nice and comfy hotel with my family. Watched a lot of movies (not really famous one though). Celebrated my nephew's one month on my Dad's side and my Grandfathers 81st birthday on my Mum's side. Went Universal Studios!!!

All this despite being sick.

Sian I kinda knew I felt weird since Thursday, when I woke up from my nap super super tired. But I thought it was just muscle fatigue from gymming with too little sleep yaknow, so I just went to bed earlier that night. Oh wells I had a headache from Friday morning through school, and worse still I had like extra lessons with my teacher after school where I was given this big chunk of extra homework to do which I decided to chiong through and finish in the library before I left for RWS. So imagine 3 hours in the library with the Sun beating down on me through the stupid window (and come to think of it the library aircon has been quite lousy these few weeks), doing headache inducing chemistry when I already have a headache. I could barely walk home that evening lol, and once I reached home I went to nap immediately. It was then that my Brother took my temp and realised it was like 39.5 degrees or something. Lolz the few hours until late dinner was just horrible. But dinner at Ramenplay RWS was good (so maybe hunger played a part in it) where I ate er rice (haha), and back to the hotel for movies and some zz. Yea won't really talk much about everything that happened, but it was fun, Universal Studios was nice but very hot (then again it beats rain huh) and well Imma gonna let me finish but Osakas one was nicer imo. Maybe it was just that the movie films (e.g. Spiderman) appealed more to me.

And I hate taking drugs (I mean like panadol here. Yea I dun support illigal drugs either though) lol.

Ok now time for the emo part. Lol everyone must have watched the super big craze video titled Jack Sparrow by the Lonely Island. And this made the world think about Michael Bolton again (the disney guy as I like to call him). Haha but I always remembered him cos of his tunes like Go the Distance and How am I supposed to Live Without You. I rarely listened to the latter though cos well I dun have the track in my music library, but I clicked it on youtube and heard it again (and heard a very deep line):



And how can I blame you
When I built my world around
The hope that someday we'd be so much more than friends
And I don't wanna know the price I'm gonna pay for dreaming
When even now it's more than I can take

Haha yea emo time.... ok finito over end stop it... or just keep trying to.

Ok now for the part where I say that I need to change in some way and do something new (lol why am I my own commentator lol).

Yea so as I was daydreaming wait I mean doing math this afternoon, I was thinking about many things that has been happening lately and I came to this realisation, one that tied everything up together:

I NEED TO GROW UP!

Huh grow up? What? Yea thats what I mean!

Of course, its not as if I haven't grown up, in fact I do proclaim to be somewhat mature (I still have a good long ways to go though), but I guess I've just been clinging on to my own childish ways for too long I guess.

One would be suanning people. And no suanning is not bullying IMO. Just look at this convos:

A: You suck
B: Stop bullying me :(

Yea thats bullying

B: How do I on this tap?
A: Er (turns on the tap right in front of B's eyes) like duh
B: Stop suanning me la basket

Yea quite obviously if that constituted bullying all sportsmen should be getting the death penalty yea.

Anyway my policy to suanning has always been only to suan fake things most of the time cos like the real things may hurt or sting yaknow. But lately I've been realising that there's really been a very huge grey area between the fake and the real, and I don't want to step into there... And well I guess while I've always said that suanning is a good way to get people talking and interacted, well maybe its time i move away from this and start getting into the more HTHT kind of convos with more people you know? Yea HTHT-ing with more people is healthier IMO (note the word "more people"-HTHTing more with one person can just be very weird). Yea ok so I shall try a new policy: no suans can last more than a week. When something happens yea just a passing joke would be fine to get people laughing, but not too long till it gets annoying or potentially dangerous.

And two: No more "gaying" around (ok that word sounds just so awkward that I shall call it X from here on). Yea its nothing like what it sounds like la, in fact its unfair to call it that lol. You know like how in the past boys being boys would like wrestle with each other and playfight with quite somewhat physical contact and people would go like "so cute!" or "they are just kids, hopefully they don't get hurt". Yea I kinda continued that way into my later years of childhood and then now it was suddenly like you know "wrong", filled with accusations or disgust. Haha I mean WTH man I just wanna have fun with my friends rite not as if I wanna end up naked with all of them the next morning, there're totally no sexual intentions behind this (even writing this makes me sick). But I should stop. Why? 1. The people who see me doing this might misunderstand (that's their own problem right? Its their sick minds that cause them to view some innocent interactions as such - if they can think something so weird out of two people playfighting I hope they don't watch WWE) but well they misunderstand = my disadvantage right =.= 2. The people who I banter around with might get the wrong idea (most don't though like its quite obvious) and 3, which is the latest one I've come up with: The people doing it to me may have the wrong intentions :S Ewwwww ok no thanks.

Yup so if all things go well there will be a more mature and (hopefully not) boring me in the moments to come.

I miss being young though, when I could walk this Earth thinking everyone was nice and all, where my parents made me think that I was the handsome-est boy in the whole wide world... Until reality came, slapped me in the face and laughed as I lay on the ground bleeding [ok I just had to put that line in cos I thought of it today, I don't really think that way all the time though haha]

Ok bye!